july 4, 2011

the grill master

trying to be like my friend amy.....her's always looks so much better

a little swimming, a little football throwing, a little grilling, a little time with family, and watermelon......what a great day to be thankful for living in the united states. we spent time at the beach and then had a little cookout at our condo. my parents had been in florida for a reunion with some of dad's army buddies and it was so fun having them join us on this 4th day of july celebration.

i seem to have a difficult time on holidays.....it is sorda bittersweet for me. while i sit back and think about what the day means, and i am so thankful for my family, friends, and freedom.....i can't help but think of our sweet boy that is not with us. it just doesn't seem complete. ups and downs for me continue, i guess. i am reminded daily, things are not quite exactly how we plan, and i try to be okay with that.

i did get a little sad today and sallie came up to me and said, "whats wrong mommy?" rich was there to help out and said "you know why mommy is sad? she misses baby brother" she looked at me holding my face with both hands and said "don't be sad mommy, i make you happy, see, i make you happy" and she smiled the biggest, most adorable smile.......she does make me so happy.

i really am thankful for this life and the lives that have made it exactly what it is today.

getting ready for the smores